没有童话的世界

遗憾

2010-02-19T09:09:00.000-08:00

久久一次，我又想起了她。人发明了犯贱这词来形容自己。

她sms我了，说她现在要飞了。有人拿着我的遗憾，飞到澳洲去了。我只能对着没有童话的世界无声叹息。

Christmas in my heart

2009-12-22T09:01:00.000-08:00

Merry christmas.

尺

2009-06-25T10:54:00.000-07:00

每个人心中都有一把尺，尺的长度，单位，甚至角度都不一样。怎么去衡量每件事都是一个学问。

May update

2009-06-14T10:46:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I last update my blog.

A lot had happened, and I couldn't manage to arrange. Yet the most impact of all is, it seems like she has started a relationship with another guy. I guess it is time for me to try on other girls, literally.

Relationship is always a problem. Honestly, you will be surprised that I never had a relationship last longer than 3 months. I never feel appreciation to a girl that is not 'right'. And in fact, she is still the girl I love the most. Everyone knows that. And everyone is asking me to stop that, I know.

Back to my May update, I had a short holiday trip to Pulau Perhentian with friends. Good chance to relieve myself from stressful and never ending workload.

Total number of participants = 9 (6 male and 3 female)

Have a short rest before going extreme.

In speed boat, travelling 50km/hr.

Let the frenzy begin.

Not bad for a Pulau.

Most of the precious time we had were without camera. It was too expensive to buy (actually quite affordable, but we have just past sea-turtle session so we didn't buy). Next time we will prepare, if we plan to go again. The rest go to my facebook to see la. Too many photo to upload.

End of April

2009-05-05T22:08:00.000-07:00

Time is best cure indeed. It will never stop running.

I had a busy April, not really busy about working, but outings. I actually went back to KK and not much people know about it. Purpose of this KK trip is family trip, to eat to see to play. Eat of course eat seafood lah.

There is a shop which is owned by my mother's friend call aunty 'ah mei' if i'm not mistaken. When I mention to my friends, their first impression is: oh eat cake punya kan? but actually the fish head meehoon is much better. Aunty cooked 3 big bowl, 1 normal fish head meehon, 1 yu watt meehon and a curry fish mee, each bowl 1 feet in diameter. I mention the size because I managed to habiskan 1 bowl of soup. We even think of recommending ah xian to come here.

This is the shop, in damai:

This is the famous ahlok. Realise the kampung man poster, I didn't know gardenia soft drink rumours are real.

The next day terus, we went to gayang to eat seafood.

There was 1 dish that I forgot to take picture. I terus grab bah. However, I manage to find a photo. Google is my friend indeed.

The legendary dish bah! But without onion lah.

I win bah.

Afterward we went to sight-seeing. Took some nice photo. I like the reflection.

Tanjung Aru also got bah.

The cloud looked nice. I imagined it as a phoenix.

Next day, we terus on a plan to manukan. I wasn't very into this plan because I just had my lasik done for less than a month. Doctor advised me not to swim. In addition, I remember manukan was polluted.

I was wrong. Some guy had did a great job preserving the island. I was so impressed and I will f-go back again if i have a chance.

I enter pulau manukan like I have step into Saint Peter's Gate.

Water was so clean like my house's swimming pool. Nah as if i have a swimming pool in my house.

World class beach bah. Oi budak spoil my picture!

Back to KK, I went to my aunt's house and I realise something. Something that I've missed, something KK has but KL doesn't. Guess what?

Tangki air SABAWAN!

In KK airport, I realise Ferrero has launched a new line (already more than half year actually) called Rondnoir.

Busy April

2009-04-14T05:35:00.000-07:00

All my weekend has fully booked. I try to keep myself busy so that I won't think unnecessary stuff.

Last week was Ching Ming. I went back to Kampar and the next day came back to KL for another round of Ching Ming. A tiring week I concluded.

Second week, that is just few days ago, was more notable. I went to do LASIK on Monday. LASIK as in cut a flap in my eyes, open it and laser/burn one part which I am not sure, so that the focus point will concentrate on the light sensitive tissue in eye ball. Whatever it is, it cure short-sighted. After came out from the operation room, my eyes were like burning oh-what-the-hell I couldn't even sleep. Luckily the pain eventually faded after few hours. But I could not open my eyes too wide. So I just buka roti Gardenia yang aku dah prepared to eat, without opening my eyes. Pitiful. I was given a pair of ultraman eye shields to prevent myself from rubbing my eyes, too.

The next day when I opened my eyes, oh-what-the-hell I could see the ceiling! Although there was slightly blur in eye sight, but I can already drive and work. At night go to yamcha lagi. It is worth suffered for the night and of course the flap-cutting process. Wednesday went to watch fast and furious lagi. but after the movie then my eyes very tired la.

My plan for weekend was canceled due to some reason. Therefore I went to 1U with my mom to see sunglasses. My friend told me that there are cheap UV+polarized sunglasses in sport shops. Oh-what-the-hell so cheap terus see terus buy bah. But then eventually I found that the quality of polarize is not as good as my boss' Oakley. Of course la what do you expect.

Two days ago was her birthday. She seems like enjoying her birthday I'm glad.
Happy birthday...

Click

2009-03-24T09:20:00.000-07:00

I wish I have the ability to fast forward this period of time. Because I am missing her badly. Just like the movie Forgetting Sarah Marshall, I can possibly find any thing around me that reminds me of her.

I used to tapao soup/porridge for her.

We used to exchange our key chain.

We used to hunt nice food around KL.

We used to like this tea so much.

I owe her a fondue.

I don't want to say I miss you.

No peace in my mind

2009-03-18T09:28:00.000-07:00

I was standing at a place of nowhere. It was so dark, I couldn't even see my own finger. I looked further. I saw blur image of myself that not belong to present time. One of the images showing me that I am doing dirty work in old age. Low wealth life. Struggling to live. Another one of the images showing me that how successful my life has been. Power, glory, money, I have everything a man wanted in his life.

Without thinking, I stepped forward to the latter image, slowly, carefully. I want all these. The path to the image is so dark. I kept walking, although I felt some obstacles laying in front.

Nothing can stop me.

I kept walking, I stepped and crossed on every obstacle I felt with my own feet. I was motivated every time I looked into the image. After an hour, I finally reached.

All of sudden, god switched on the light. Now I have clear image of the world I am in. Power, glory, money, all greater than I seen from far away. I become one of the most influential man in the world. However, I have nothing more than these. I feel the picture is not completed. Something is missing. That's right, friends, family, where are they?

I looked back. I found my friends and family. They were laying on the path, their body full of my foot prints.

Stop!!! That's all for imagination. However there is no red light in my mind. I just can't stop thinking. Life, love, friends, family, career. No wonder people say 'rest in peace'. There is only peace of mind when people are dead.

白色情人节

2009-03-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

据说白色情人节是表白的对象回应自己的日子。

我回想当初怎么向她表白，我才发现原来已经三年前了。回头看这三年，我做过了不少的第一次。我第一次只身假扮大客，去工业区帮她讨presentation用的fibre glass.我第一次因为一个人生病而坐立不安，最后打包粥在她家外面等她醒来。最最重要的是，我第一次真正爱上一个人。

或许是值得的吧。

已经等了三个白色情人节。奇迹始终没有出现。

The end of our story

2009-03-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

Every story has an end, including mine. She seems so calm, and her face told me that she has nothing to be fear, of her ongoing life without me.

Nonetheless I felt upset. I was somehow disappointed.

However, she did ask me why I looked so sad. But I didn't answer. And she also kept quiet.

There is nothing else I can say but goodbye. "Good bye" I said. Behind these, lies a phrase I didn't want to say to her: "Good bye my love one. Thank you for the great moment we have spent together. Although I never make it, you will still be in my heart."

12/3/2009

2009-03-11T23:38:00.000-07:00

今天是一个特别的日子。我将把她的手提电脑还给她。同时这或许是我们最后一次见面。我的心情不知该用什么字眼表达。

如果我真的放弃了的话，我该觉得这是一个给我重生的机会。但同时我心里想这或许是我最后一次得到她的机会，明知道我不会有的机会。

“如果” ，“或许” 和 “应该” 把我害惨。我“应该”绝情一点。不要给她感觉我很长情。我“应该”潇洒一点。不要给她感觉我很认真。

绝情和潇洒，是我现在唯一的筹码。

今天是我的母亲生日。祝她生日快乐。

Enlightment

2009-03-02T05:20:00.000-08:00

I think I am undergoing some kind of process of... enlightment.

I start wondering what is so nice to own a Nikon D90 SLR.

I start wondering what is so nice to own a Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution.

I have been materialistic.

One day I was driving on highway and out of sudden I thought that why there is such a thing call Nikon D90 on earth. What is a camera? I doubt everyone on earth know what is camera. I imagined there must be somewhere around the earth, there are people do not know what is a camera. You give them a D90, they will take it hang on their neck and irrigate their farm. They may be thinking it is some kind of gift from god that can summon rain. Flashing a D90 to them may be making them happy because they might as well thought it was a lightning, and eventually follow by heavy rain.

If I drive an Evolution, people will know what it is. Not knowing that is an Evolution, but a car. What is a car? Something that can move very fast with 4 wheels and exhaust dirty air. What is the different between an Evolution with some other cars they have seen? Maybe colour.

I taking place into their position, thinking if I were only a farmer in a village. What would I be? I maybe thinking how to grow my farm at day. At night, I maybe laying on grass land looking into the sky.

What the heck is LV, Gucci, Prada?

If I were a farmer, I will tell you it is some kind of animal skin. If I were told that 1 bag is equivalent to all my farms, I will try to catch a wild boar and skin it to fake 1 bag.

At least there is something we are missing comparing to these people. They live happily without these. How about us? After getting Nikon D90, what is next? After getting LV, what is next? Perhaps a more expensive LV?

记得一句话: 知足常乐

还有一点要补充: 原来要得到一个人也是一种奢侈

Missing

2009-03-02T00:20:00.000-08:00

I am missing you badly. Why am I suffering this. I looked around. Apparently there is no answer for that.

The war has begun

2009-02-18T23:05:00.000-08:00

Well if you have time to read, why don't you go and look for a job?

End of honey moon

2008-10-21T18:47:00.001-07:00

Financial crisis has started, and I am unprepared. I was confident that the States will be able to recover their losses within months, and therefore I did not follow up news with the crisis lately. Apparently this morning I read my boss' email, a friend of him told that the situation at Wall street is worse than every paper says. Jobless American everywhere.

Iceland fall. British citizens have 30 billion in Iceland frozen. United States' fall has started a direct hit of financial crisis towards Europe. If Europe can not survive, the next chapter will be held in Asia.

Getting sick

2008-10-18T10:02:00.000-07:00

I am seriously getting sick of this situation. I am seriously thinking why am I here and what am I for. I am unworthy.

Counting day for BN

2008-09-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

Tremble mortal and despair... doom have come to this country!

Tomorrow is 16, September. All Malaysian that stay on trees will remember that, this date is the formation of Malaysia. How about Malaysian that stay on ground? They know it was 31, August 1957.

I am not 'those who stay on trees'. But over the year, special right that were given to Sabahan/Sarawakians, eventually abolished. Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/20-point_agreement_(Sabah)

Whoever wins, we lose.

2008-08-28T01:37:00.000-07:00

Permatang Pauh residents had did something they should do last tuesday. No one doubt the victory of Mr Anwar.

Stories about BN collecting identification cards of residents, BN send gangster to put flag of opposition parties in their motorcycles and trouble the residents in Permatang Pauh etc, is heard but without much evidence. Everyone heard of this will believe it was true and phucking hate BN. Of course, only if it was true. No one will admit this right? In the end, Mr Anwar won big.

Truly, I dislike BN. However, Mr Anwar isn't anywhere that good. Since the day he was threatened by assasination and seek refuge from Turkey Embassy, I personally felt he seeks power and glory for himself, not for the people.

Politic is like drama, Mr Mahathir and Mr Anwar was once so lovely. However, Mr Mahathir 'found out' that his lover has a 'secret lover' and they 'did something betrayed' Mr Mahathir. In the end they broke up harshly.

Now, we have 2 choices: Barisan Nasional and Pakatan Rakyat. Choose the less worse one. No matter who owns power, we lose.

Note to Mr Anwar: If you turn things out, you better do. If you do not, please stop craps. For now, I will hope and see...

Mr Abdullah's pic?

Normal day

2008-08-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

Most interest thing in my blog is... ta-da! look at the date. Couldn't believe it was 2 years ago since I last update. I shall see who will be the first to read after so long.

After 2 years, my name is still Lee Kwee Hui, still single, but age a little changed. I am 23 now. Huh? Ok now I realised it was almost 3 years I didn't update.

Well many things happened. I graduated, now working as a programmer in Technology Park Malaysia, a.k.a TPM. Basically I do everything as a programmer.

I am lazy to tell everything happened in this 3 years. Let's just make today day 1. I am recovering from damn virus. Tomorrow activity should be all off, except tomorrow night holy shity lunar bar / poppy garden!! Tell you what, that is my best cure.

I hate too much text. Let's put some photo.

Aiya.. using sister PC. Next time lah k? Gtg shit. See ya.

wah.....

2005-04-27T08:36:00.000-07:00

i almost forget this blog. so so so busy these days.. sux.. busy for game.. chatting.. downloading.. and lastly.. ... ... assignment...? hehe ok lah let's tell the story now

Since the day I forget about this blog, something has happened... what is that?? how can i remember? didn't I said I forget??! Don't ask me again..

So let's start from the day I remember my blog. That day... ... ... ... I forget when did I remember my blog. Don't ask me again..

So let's talk about today. Today is a suxy day.. busy for game.. chatting.. downloading.. and lastly.. ... ... assignment...? Today we have a demo for java assignment. haihz tell you also wont understand. Friday we have ms project assignment to pass up. Next week we have c++ assignment. haihz so busy. Ok lah I want to play dota liao ciaoz~

late...

2005-03-29T06:27:00.000-08:00

wait ah.. new pic coming soon...

munkong's birthday

2005-03-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

saturday was mk's bday party. so me and some of my classmates went to KAJANG~ (from sungai buloh - around 40km distance) to celebrate with him. haiya so boring lah there mr yap but nevermind lah for our best fren...... we bought an mp3 player for him as present straightaway he bring to college today. ok back to saturday: after his party we went to RUSH~ a pub near eastin hotel. this is the first time i go to a pub... in kl.... also in malaysia.. in my life lah muahaha. so i feel quite excited. when we reach wah we saw 13 SLK parking at the reserved parkings outside rush. inside is so so so hot, and, a lot of hot hot hot chicks~~ ok that's it tomolo continue

another day~

2005-03-13T23:00:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11:00 plan to attend a meeting for streamyx issue around my house area. but i didn't go haih so lazy lah. watch tv tv see my mother bake "black forest cake" for my cousin - wei hao. after that we gamble. ngek ngek ngek just bcoz nothing to do (actually i got many assignments but lazy ler...) then at night we go to puchong lor have dinner with tat fei chai hao. haih later going to read notes ler totally no idea how to do my assignment. buddha help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Bloody me

2005-03-10T02:05:00.000-08:00

today i donate blood. actually i typed a long long article but when i click post, my internet connection sot liao forward me to "no page displayed" then i click "back" habis my words all gone. f*ck off the modem.

i rear fish!

2005-03-07T08:36:00.000-08:00

i got gold fish! 8 orange and 1 black, and 2 bandaraya. one of the bandaraya owez chase after my gold fish (my fren say they like their fins) so my mother put it near the pump. few hours later the pump sounds different so off it. that notty bandaraya was killed by the pump motor. how scary half of its head gone!! then i take it out and bury it. actually this happened few weeks ago i have nothing to tell so i post tis lor muahahahahahahaha. today is a busy monday. although afternoon class was canceled, haih but still i need to fetch my mother go here go there. coz tat stupid bandaraya has nothing to do so they wan my mother to fill in a form and return to their office. donno wat for oso. then we go fetch my sister lor. lucky on the way to home no traffic jam. then at night i go for tuition lor but half way no current pula. then mao pian lor go home play game lagi syok. ok bye

what is it....

2005-03-06T07:07:00.000-08:00

very fan ooooooooo. assignment not yet finish. so hard. oso lazy to do lor... haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh